Trust

Body Image, Health & Fitness, Style, Weight Loss

About 3 years ago I was at a yard sale and I saw these jeans. These polka dot J.Crew skinnies were $1 and appeared to be the right size for me. I scooped them up immediately as I was so excited at the prospect of polka dot jeans! If you know me, you know my love of polka dots knows no bounds.

When I got home to try them on, I couldn’t get them up past my mid-thigh. I was disappointed but decided to keep them. I was hopeful that one day I might fit into these beautiful pants.

The polka dot skinnies have stayed tucked away in an under bed storage container for the last three years. A few times a year, the bins get pulled out while I rotate out my seasonal clothes. Most of the time I look at them wistfully, but every once in a while I try them on. The last time I tried them on two weeks ago? THEY FIT!

You see, just earlier that morning I’d been having a little bit of a pity party for myself. I’d been struggling staying on track with my macros, finding myself sneaking extra bites of peanut butter or snitching a piece of chocolate here or there. I was disappointed in myself and feeling like my progress had been stagnant.

I finally got myself together and realized that lying in bed all morning wasn’t going to help with anything, so I decided to do some chores around the house. I started going through my closet and swapping out winter clothes for spring clothes. I opened the bin that had the polka skinnies in them and this time I tried them on. I couldn’t believe it as I pulled them up and they didn’t get stuck at my thighs. I was able to pull them all the way up and button them. What luck!

That moment really brought everything into perspective for me. It wasn’t luck that brought me to the moment of pulling those goal jeans on and it wasn’t my pity party either. It has been years in the making and, most recently, about 5 months of diligent hard work focusing on my nutrition and weight lifting. And all of that came with its ups and downs, highs and lows, moments of extreme dedication and moments of weakness. No matter how slow the weight has fallen off or how long it’s taken to see muscle definition, I have kept going, even when it seems like nothing is working and I’ve plateaued. Ultimately, I’ve had to trust the process., though I was very skeptical at times. It turns out trusting that process worked.

Sweater (similar) // Shirt // Jeans (similar) // Belt // Shoes